Letting go of the ego.......

Had to face some tough rejections today. Two jobs that I needed desperatley to support myself. Even though I went on 2 dates in 2 weeks, that died also. First thing comes to mind is rebelling and looking for someone/image strong enough to deal with it.This just makes the ego stay with the pain, causing the pain to be me.Images, videos, visualizations are alot about the rejection,hate,and suffering.Freeing myself I have to let the pain die and not give it any representation.Otherwise I wont survive. I was going to represent this post with an image,but that contradicts to what I wrote. With my birthday coming up, I have to let go of everything....

Every time we take an act of courage, we gain a point of confidence.

Stop perfecting what doesn't work in your life:If you continue to loop the thought, "This isn't fair... I'm so angry" you're not able to stay in a place of confidence.

Another confidence killer: Your comfort zone!

Working through my introverted feelings.Broke so cant go out much.Not doing what im suppose to be respecting Extroverted Thinking than before.

Even though I had a couple of makeouts, I can do better. I have to click the switch off and than go.RSD does it w/o booze.20-30 rejections in a row till it hits them....Letting the false self die since it is no help. In a fight of any kind; physical or otherwise...if im not dead than I WIN!