kingjadine died

She was a junior in highschool.On her twitter account she tweeted about her suicidal thoughts,to purchasing a gun,but not one of her 2000 followers tried to stop her.She was popular in sports to having tons of friends.What does that say about the rest of us who are outkast nor accepted by society?

Where do we go
Where do we go now
Where do we go

just not happy

i actually dont like going out to clubs/bars, tired of talking to girls. forcing myself to talk with them because i got nothing going on. the rejection has really destroyed my ego. my ego cant even stand up anymore. its shattered but wont die. in order for me to breath n survive, this ego must die.

drinking liquor doesnt do shit for me, cause i blackout.just dont know what to do. i want to get out of this hole,world.

ego took over

went out sober after a while and it was a disaster. outcome dependent, worrying how to approach and what other people might think. i dont get it. i really dont have anyone at 32, still a virgin, face constant rejection but my ego doesnt want to die.in order for me to survive i have to let this ego die, once n for all. just cant breathe anymore

BLUR

From people to girls to locations, everything is a blur. Blur in the sense they dont matter, they dont exist in my world anymore. It doesnt matter who, where, or what they represent they just dont matter. Testing this theory to see what happens. Keep yall posted...pinky swear &

FREE

Im becoming more comfortable with the idea of being alone. Ive went on a second date with this girl from afroromance.com. I have no idea what she sees in me hahaha but i can b myself around her. I havent jerk off in a week, sex is not even on my mind. I feel free but it feels kind of weird about not worrying about anything or being negative. Staying off the Pua boards for now. Goal is to stop drinking and stop smoking. Getting too wasted is messing me up