TAKE IT....ITS URS

i see a clear picture...i can taste it...its right infront of me....i know how it feels to have it...the isness of that moment...the wild...getting lost.....its right there.....I AM

                                                                          
Tell your mind to go fuck itself and walk straight into HORRIBLE situations.                          

                                                                                                    

you are not ur mind

using my mind when chasing girls does not work.as soon as i get into the beast mode, not give a fuck, blown out or not the few girls show interest. training urself to be in beast mode and not using ur mind does take alil effort. using ur mind for the past 31 years and now u realize u r not ur mind. mood swing r getting more dangerous. mentally and sexually frustrated with depression always entering through the back door.

Chode Nite.......

havent been out in 2 weeks. quit drinking so didnt think it will effect me but it did. ended up like a wallflower. got alot of looks from girls. weird when im drinking i dont see any girls checking me out. i was doing fine at home not thinking. at the bar my mind wouldnt shut the fuck up. waiting for the perfect moment. should have gotten blown out of every set. going for blowout after blowout to start the night and get out of his head after not approaching for two weeks and going on one hour of sleep.  Will pull at girls as they were walking by who weren't having it because he was so in his head and he pressed forward with every interaction until it was awkward and embarassing, which as he explained before each approach was his goal.  Each one, however, was less bad than the last one, until after 7 or 8 stale sets and blowouts he ended up in set for long periods of time with the hottest girls in the bar who were loving him.....is my goal.