Im having a lil trouble with my drinking.Its like either all or nothing. Approaches could have been way better but being wasted is not helping.Clawing/Grabbing girls i assumed would get me in some trouble with nightclubs/bars but something diff happened last nite.I got banned from a place i barely approached girls.I didnt even walk in yet and the bouncer pulled me aside, when the owner gave me a dirty look.Supposedly i got banned from a sports bar for not buying drinks and the owner of shannon rose stopped by to talk with the owner of big shots to ban me from this (big shots) also.WTF? doesnt make any sense. bouncer tells me that a girl came to big shots from shannon rose and said i was mean to her at shannon rose.Wtf, does that have to do with big shots, which is a diff location/diff spot. I barely opened any girls at shannon rose anyway. NJ is weird.Its discrimination, thats what it is.
Getting into issues with my gang of friends on the way i approach girls.They dont like the don juan/fronsac approach.They dont get it, cause girls pick them up.They have blonder hair,blue eyes,good looking so girls want that.Especially if u have a social circle of friends, u are already pre approved by the circle....that way girls will go out with u easily v/s going out with a random stranger who cold approached them.One thing I've learned that in the face of true love/cold approaching.... you don't just give up even if the object of your affection is begging you to
ended up at hoboken. black girls were open to my approach, but white girls....they ran the other way. havent given up on them. im just gonna have to claw them in now. played with a hessian girls boobies...and they were meant to be played with. so went out with no earrings. dressed up not my usual thing. its all about inner game.
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............the vodka didnt work. half a bottle and im sober like i just hard a mixed flavored drink. talked with girls here and there. But then, wait for it......i entered chandelier room in the W hotel. two girls i opened got me in. its like they were open but lost interest in who i was....the beginning of what im afraid of.tried to speak with a couple of girls but nothing. out of no where, i grabbed to white girls with my CLAW and they loved it.it lasted for a couple of minutes but thats it. this is not who i am, but who i am is not working. after that i locked up completely. self sabotage u may call it. i see a vision if u may, a clear picture of who im becoming, but this path is very destructive mentally and physically. after reading a couple of thread of different users, im beginning to see the end of my innocence. hell hath no fury like a man scorned................
So i ended up going to empire roof top tonite. Vodka didnt kick in and i felt paralyzed. spoke with 2,3 girls but nothing. had to buy 3 beers before trouble kicked in. Welcome MR. HYDE. Did my stuff but she walked away. got personal cause she was asking. never get personal. when will i learn approached other girls but nothing. end up talking to this beauty black/white/italian mix. gorgeous. got personal with her and she said i can leave. gave her a quick peck and moved. she just stole my nite. i should kept on doing rather than getting personnel with her. all she said is what u want to do to me...me being romantic fucked it up. when will i learn again???? two cute indian girls were into me....but u know im done with numbers. just looking to hit and quit it. after that i was beyond exhausted. nothing hooked. where do we go from here.....hoboken i guess ;)
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so i had alil bit too much vodka. i cut back, but on an empty stomach smirnoff hit hard. approached a couple of sets do come back home with me. it didnt work. did shock and awe on 2 sets but it didnt work. i had too much vodka to go back and continue. met a russian barsmaid going back home. did the same line i did on other girls and she was receptive to everything. i didnt ask her to comeback home but she was interested in meeting again. we parted ways on the train station. inside its not me she is attracted to. alot of indian guys have been to russia and russian women love brown skin men. it doesnt matter what they say. call it self-sabotage of my part,but i dont think i did anything to get her attn. maybe she was looking for an indian guy to begin with. will i reply back? NO. i failed today by drinking too much vodka. white,black,spanish girls shut me down as always. if it wasnt for power of now, i would have a bullet in my head. a human can only take so much. oh well.....makes u question the supreme power. y would it let its good human beings suffer so much pain. we havent done anything wrong. we just want to be accepted and loved. u realize that GOD has left this place a long long time ago. so only thing u can do is be merciless with ur ego at the age of 31, and keep on fighting. life is like a car of racetrack. once in a while ur car might get in a spin. its ur job to put it on track. i dont know how long i can do this, but i have nothing else going on for me. at the end, as my friend immoretull said, "Nobody cares if u live or die". i was a believer in LIVE n LET LIVE. on this road cold life, with so much hate, i say LIVE AND LET DIE.............
they are just not into brown skin guys unless ur hispanic.black guys get white girls without doing any work. when a girl is interested in a guy, the guy can make all the mistakes but she still will go out with him.white guys get any nationality. austrailian,european women come to america to sleep with black men. over 6000 approaches but nothing. looks dont matter.online dating, brown guys have no chance unless they are accepted by society. just tired...keep on punching
