LET GO........................

When you let go,it kills a part of yourself. If you live in a victim mentality state of mind,the best thing to do is to kill your emotions.

i dont think i was ever meant to date or have a girlfriend

was depressed of never getting a chance n facing constant rejection since the beginning of december.shaadi.com women show no interest.mayb im never meant to have a girlfriend,wife,hell even a date.women at the age of 32 have been engaged,married,kids,series of boyfriends.i cant even get a chance.i get slammed shut.y do i even put up this fight,y do i still try? nobody cares since the beginning.wish i had the balls to commit suicide but i dont.sucks when my personality,horoscope says im meant to be in a relationship.i cant even get a date.i just have to b happy to b with myself.there is no other choice.ive been getting rejected by women since the age of 18 for gods sake.

enjoying the last days of this year

went out to park east tonite.was just starring at girls.had anxiety,depressed,waiting for the perfect opening.everytime i think of girls i get in that victim mentality state.i really dont have time for girls.if 2012 is the end,than i want to enjoy myself,put myself forward.putting women on a pedestal,selling myself so she finally says yes to me,having someone to care for u,go on a date with u,share things with u....never got that chance.being depressed,giving up on life is not the way i want this year to end.being stiff,waiting for perfection to come in,getting jealous when i see other people smiling,watching couples n feeling hurt,friends/brothers getting married while im the one who should b...just makes it worse for me.i just want to breakaway from all of this.i want to celebrate and will celebrate myself.

time is passing me by

i kinda knew this wouldnt be that ez.my mind is thinking abt how i havent been laid in 3yrs to no girl in sight.at the same time its forcing me to go out,but that just puts me in a dark,depressed,loner mood.its like my body cant take this pain of women anymore.a life without women is like a breath of fresh air.its already mid november.....just have to be more charismatic with inner confidence

ME

i reached a point where any thought of women makes me extremely depressed.life without them is not possible but i never even had a girlfriend or a date.im still breathing.im still standing. im still here.trying a new character,being someone else to get women never worked for me.picturing if there are no women in the world,how will i live......is possible now.

i can see a life without women.the whining, depression, negativity, hate, rebel, crying, lonliness,will convert into being more charismatic n confident.life as a playground.... just having fun.fast paced lifestyle.i made it this far without women.i dont want any sadness,grief,pity,depression,lonliness,oh well i tried type of vibe.not doing this for women,but myself.a fast paced,chaotic lifestyle....it will take time.

breaking away....

My mind is in a different place.Reading the last thread makes me think n realize how negative,desperate,depressing,somewhat rebellious my blog has been.I cant say i wont go back to old ways,but i have been feeling different.

I was reading more about aries.....went back in time where i did job interviews,family parties,blah blah blah.Never put so much pressure on myself n just took action.My focus was not a person,place,or thing.I cant figure out what im focusing on,but anything in between from people,meetings,numbers, dont really matter. its chaotic.Not sitting still, nor standing still.Just throwing urself in there.As soon as my mind starts doubting, everything falls like a stack of cards.

Have been listening to the following song and watching videos to change my negativity.

Couple of days ago, I was suicidal/depressed of going out.Hated going out n approaching.Its not that i couldnt,but i just didnt enjoy it.Well i am working n have killed/ignore/erase those weaknesses of pity,y me,fuck the world,when will god,help me,dark thoughts to more happy,chaotic,fun,charismatic,daring,rebellious thoughts.it wont happen overnight.The old pattern is...approach>rejection>others success>jealous>y me>when will my turn come>depressed>suicidal>hate>rebellious>music>pressure>get laid or dye trying>mr perfect>right moment>wrong way approach>never good enough>perfectionist mindset>go home alone>music loud>swearing>full of hate>dying>rebel>rage>cant take it>y me>depressed>suicidal>sleepy>get back up n keep on moving.

Creativity is often blocked by trying to be perfect "Creativity is allowing yourself to make mistakes. Art is knowing which ones to keep."

"Heroism is endurance for one moment more"--George F. Kennan

It's me that is the problem.The victim mentality has run its course.It is done!Take those weaknesses with u now n let the world annihilate it with ur success,hate,rejection.There is no other way but to keep on punching and move forward. It requires more courage to suffer than to die.

You have learned how every man has his own courage, and is betrayed because he seeks in himself the courage of other persons.It was never the situation,but your victim mentality thoughts about it.You have no other place to go.It is done.All the bridges have been burned.The universe has been killing those weaknesses for you time after time.Those weaknesses are dying to leave....let them go NOW.Your whining,crying,why me are done.Endurance is not just the ability to bear a hard thing, but to turn it into glory.

Creativity is often blocked by trying to be perfect "Creativity is allowing yourself to make mistakes."Your "Limits" are the real starting points.Walk with the crap still left in you.Let it burn....watch it die...dont judge it...dont react to it. You were always an Aries....

just cant kill this victim mentality....

when i had a job, money,my place....women still rejected me. now i quit everything n just cant get a chance. pushing my pain threshold has just gotten me depressed....

suicidal.....guys have 4 girls on the side.i cant get one. i just dont know anymore....

face ur fears......RISE UP......BE THE PURE NOT GIVE A FUCK ATTITUDE  SEXUAL PRESENCE MAN.women want black/white guy so u will have to push urself more than any1 alive. look at the victim mentality in the eye directly...and tell it to go fuck itself. u have no other way, but this!Get up NOW soldier.....dont u know there is a WAR going on

MASSIVE EXTREME ACTION n KILL ur weaknesses NOW

the UNIVERSE is showing u the weaknesses.NOW U R taking extreme massive action and SAVAGELY KILLING these weaknesses by any means necessary.....

1.   Kill the victim mentality

2.   Giving a FCUK

3.   GETTING TO KNOW THEM

4.   MAKING HER FEEL COMFORTABLE

5.   PUTTING HER FIRST

6.   WAITING FOR THE RIGHT MOMENT

7.   NEEDINESS OF WANTING A GF

8.   NEEDINESS OF BEING ACCEPTED

9.   STARING AT THEM

10.THINKING ABT THE APPROACH

11. TRYING TO BUILD A CONNECTION

12. TRYING TO GET GOOD IMPRESSION

13.TRYING TO DATE THEM

14.PLAYING VICTIM

15.NOT ACCEPTED OR GIVEN A CHANCE

16.REJECTED N NOT ACCEPTED BY PEOPLE

17.TRYYING TO MAKE HER FEEL COMFORTABLE

18.BECOMING SOMEONE ELSE FOR THEM

19.HOPING THEY WILL REALIZE WHAT THEY MISSED OUT ON

20.THE HORSE THAT NO ONE BETS ON WILL FINALLY BE RECOGNIZED

21.WAITING FOR THE RIGHT MOMENT,PERFECTION

22.OTHER PEOPLE AROUND,NOT READY

BE THE FUCKING MAN!!!! PURE SELF AMUSED SEXUAL,DONT GIVE A FUCK ATTITUDE

still punching.....

guy i know is getting married end of this month....
my younger bro is getting married now who was always accepted by every1...
sarging buddy got the # of a girl,who i opened n was persistent....

this is not about women anymore.its about ME. about killing those weaknesses in me.from trying to get her to laugh,like me,feel my energy,giving a fuck,waiting for her signal,going for her number.......nothing.though i did get two numbers,but im going to call them.in the past it never worked n doubt if it will now.by that i mean after the phone conversation she just lost interest.they loose interest after the approach cause i try to get to know them.when i dont give a shit about them n joke around they like it.i am dying...i m forcing myself to kill these weaknesses now....too much pressure i cant breathe....i never did anything wrong to women so y wont them give me a chance? im 31 n nothing.the one who is meant to be a good husband loyal never gets a chance.y me will never help now.its not women....its me.dear universe, show me my weaknesses n force me to take extreme aggressive action to kill these weaknesses.

windy Hoboken

Exhausted,had to go out. I noticed that my mind automatically goes for things that dont work.rather than doing what i should be doing to get results,in panic mode my mind goes on autopilot.not going to waste too much on it,since it keeps coming back.just accept it n focus on where i should be.

1.start grabbing n escalating physically
2.approach right away...no need to wait since the perfect moment never comes
3.better to get blown out than wait for chemisty
4.wtf r u trying to get a good impression from her.if she is not rejected u or telling u to foff than force urself on her.
5.It is October 15. This too will pass...start approaching more
6.Thick skin, push out of ur comfort zone.have been sleeping there forever

COURAGE & ENDURANCE quotes

Courage is the discovery that you may not win, and trying when you know you can lose.

Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear, not absence of fear.
Mark Twain

Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts.
Winston Churchill

One man with courage is a majority.
Thomas Jefferson

Courage is not simply one of the virtues, but the form of every virtue at the testing point.
C. S. Lewis

We gain strength, and courage, and confidence by each experience in which we really stop to look fear in the face... we must do that which we think we cannot.
Eleanor Roosevelt

Every man has his own courage, and is betrayed because he seeks in himself the courage of other persons.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

You will never do anything in this world without courage. It is the greatest quality of the mind next to honor.
Aristotle

You have to accept whatever comes and the only important thing is that you meet it with courage and with the best that you have to give.
Eleanor Roosevelt


Courage is fear holding on a minute longer.
George S. Patton

It requires more courage to suffer than to die.
Napoleon Bonaparte

Success is never final, failure is never fatal. It's courage that counts.
John Wooden

Come what may, all bad fortune is to be conquered by endurance.
Virgil

Endurance is not just the ability to bear a hard thing, but to turn it into glory.
William Barclay

Endurance is patience concentrated.
Thomas Carlyle

Heroism is endurance for one moment more.
George F. Kennan

The first virtue in a soldier is endurance of fatigue; courage is only the second virtue.
Napoleon Bonaparte

Prolonged endurance tames the bold.
Lord Byron

Defy the ODDS

Went out solo after a while.got rejected as usual.the thought of not being laid for a while didnt kick in to push me, alil approach anxiety....was suppose to meet a couple of guys n go to a local pub but fuck it. have to think about my dick.negatitivy really hit me hard tonight. didnt go out. plus spending too much. no free places around.most probably do some day game to makeup for last nite....work on self...stronger beliefs..should to must..fearless...confidence.....need to let go n just be



just created n uploaded this video....

i shall die in the trenches...................

No more state reliance.....BEASTING till i die. waiting for the moment is just not working.always seeking something from the women by getting into a state and getting a certain reaction from them.Another guy telling me to just get arranged marriage since women dont give me the time or day.NO! Never.

Time to get busy dying...by any means necessary....Should to MUST! Must and will push way past this constant rejection threshold.Be merciless and conquer your ego. GIVE GIVE GIVE.Before this is over, even a god-king will bleed.

frozen

so many pretty girls at 118 lounge,nj tonite.just froze. have to make my beliefs stronger.i have no other option but to go forward.hoping for a handout is never going to happen for me.....

Release Me

Beautifully Broken......

i took some tips n realized if u emotion behind the cause,its gives u stronger motion.the cause pulls u in. been hanging out with this happy ESFP,but had to end it.he is just too happy n stable.realized how much ive changed overtime.have been practicing alot of NLP by anthony robbins n ross jeffries.also getting in state is becoming more intense.taking notes from the "charismatic". i can take the easy way by going arranged,but i have this core belief,feeling in my gut,Soul of Fire,which believes i have something better that awaits.might be some bitchin n whinin on my part but there is something greater that awaits.alot of nlp+power of now to keep me going....

...finally shutting down those victim tapes playing for a decade.its going to get worse before it gets better

Sitting Still Moving Still Staring Outlooking

i took a break from anthony robbins, eckhart tolle, ross jeffries...went to extreme depresssion.i know what i want, i visualize it....but i cant act upon it. when im faced with approaching...i draw a blank n just go back to what i was doing.before i wasnt even approaching, but now i am...positive affirmations to my mind doesnt kick in when im looking to approach women.i know i can do it,but just dont.power of now doesnt kick in when im in the club.state just isnt there.not having sex in 5 yrs n only once before that doesnt come to my mind when im the lounge/bar/club.i berate myself when im home and when im at the club i dont approach.too pussy to end this waste life, so im just suffering.hoping a girl comes and plucks me.that will not happen in reality....im shattered in every way.just dont believe in myself.want to start drinking liquor but i dont want to...i want to do this sober....HELP ME

BROKEN

Where do i begin? From last week, i only did 1 approach.My confidence is completley shattered.Listening to anthony robbins to ross jeffries to eckhart tolle.I just cant approach anymore. Everyone is mingling,fucking,dating but i cant even get anything.My mind is just paralyzed when im out.I cant take this pain anymore,but dont take any action either since my mind becomes extremely negative and depressed.

I dont know if im at rock bottom,but no matter how much pain im in, i just dont act.i have all the knowledge in the world but dont act on it.i cant take it, but i dont give any action to get out of this loop.

By beliefs are still uncertain, hence my potential is little, resulting in barely any action and  0 results=the negative belief becomes stronger. cant give up...have nothing else going for me....

unstifling yourself...........

Emotion=Motion. Been practicing for a day to shake away my stiff/serious vibe and go go go.started to enjoy the music.dancing at home im free at the club its diff. its like i want the perfect entry.forced myself to let go,but didnt work.i will do it eventually so y wait.working on submodalities by anthony robbin,r jeffries state change tapes.i have it in me,but its not coming out.have to drop the ISFP state like i dropped the ESTJ state.at the mall, im free....but at the club its like im paralyzed.at the mall, i see, i approach...club...im locked.have to accept the situation like i chose it, and listen to the voice behind the sounds my mind is creating. will be dancing and shaking to break state n see what happens...

Angel of Death

Uploaded my first video on youtube. A phantasmic siren and the Angel of Death waiting to take.....

here is the youtube link:

Where do we go.....Where do we go NOW

this voice that doesnt shut the fuck up when im home,but once outside it hides.Success is nothing more than pressure over time, so be relentless.Never accept your excuses.Push yourself way, WAY beyond your pain threshold.Be savage with your training, and you will see extreme improvement.

Just keep punching. That's the thing about fighting. Sure, skill is important. Sure strength matters. But endurance can overcome anything. It doesn't matter what it is - as long as you're throwing punches after the other guy has stopped throwing punches, you've won the fight.Don't give up. That is the first thing. Just keep punching.

Being blown around like a leaf in a hurricane hoping that luck would throw me a bone had taught me nothing. No. No longer would I be that leaf. I would be the hurricane.
I would be the fucking hurricane.

How? How did u keep urself sane? Two things. Firstly - by any means necessary. Achieved by any means necessary. That is how you need to keep your spirits alive. By any means necessary.   Secondly, you can look at a tricky approach in two ways. As massively negative, or just really positive no matter what the outsome because you are facing your terror head on and saying to it "Fuck you, terror. Fuck you till you die."

Strength of character is a choice. It doesn't come down to a choice, it doesn't contain a choice. It IS a choice. Get busy living, or get busy dying. This is the only choice we monkeys ever face in any situation. Get busy living, or get busy dying. You face that choice in every situation. It is the only choice you'll ever really make - everything else is just the specifics of how that fundamental choice plays itself out in context. It is the beating heart of free will. Go on or give up. Fight or fold. Live or die.

I took the only option I had. And when I choose to do something, I do it. I do it with every atom of strength at my disposal. Why? Because it seemed obvious to me that this was the only possible exit. This was the only possible escape. Nothing else had any real promise. It was this, or nothing. This or unhappiness for the rest of my life and whatever fate awaited me afterward. That is the choice which I believe we all face. I did not fight as hard as I did because I am intrinsically more passionate than others. I fought so hard because I saw the choice so clearly.

--DR JEKYLL MR HYDE

The ultimate truth of who you are is not I am this or I am that, but I Am.

You can only lose something that you have, but you cannot lose something that you are

Give up defining yourself - to yourself or to others. You won't die. You will come to life. And don't be concerned with how others define you.

--Eckhart Tolle

"If you do not conquer self, you will be conquered by self."- Napoleon Hill

0 approaches, but breakthrough from reading article

Tried doing the state, power of now...but once in the club....just went calm.i was waiting for the state to kick in, but end up getting more nervous than before. i dont know if getting in state is for me.didnt get mad,or berate myself, cause i was using my mind. my mind is not use to this. u r not ur mind. doubt if i will use the state again. read something very interesting....

"Its massive action, pain, reflection, and making adjustments from what you learn infeild. I feel no pity for you because you have not taken the first step seriously. Looking for someone to give you permission to challenge your self to step up is absolutely weak. You don't need anyone to give you the ok to man the fuck up. You choose, you say what ever it takes, you make it happen and you put in the time. 
Going out more often, interacting with women more, will force you through the pain of meeting girls you like and then having them viciously reject you for the weakenesses in your personality.  This forces you to KILL those weaknesses and allow parts of yourself to DIE.  The game, then, is a combination of a lot of FUN of going out, and then PAIN of having amazing women who you feel strong emotions for reject you for idiot-douchebags who have the whole "relate as a man to a woman" thing down better than you do.
She is still seeing from you -- little bitchboy weaknesses that you've gotta weed out and exchange for pure self amused sexual don't give a fuck attitude -- and this is only going to come with a lot MORE interaction with women."

I WILL NOT BE DENIED!!!!

Besides doing power of now,visualization of S+A,i started doing something new.Spoke with this guy who does visualization, in which he becomes the character,with strong emotions=to get into state.Even though doing strong emotional visualization with how things are suppose to be, it lasts only for couple of minutes.Im talking about doing this for a good 30 minutes.Once in the club, my mind is completeley off. Dont know if this is good thing because I dont approach.Tried 2 approaches and it went well,but i ejected.Hate that shit.While other guys were getting drunk n not approaching girls,i was trying to make moves.The NOW gets extremely powerful once im meditating in that state.Everything shutsdown.Cant wait for the state to come to me,so will have to plow.My negative mindset is changing slowly.Have to go out more, like start on Wednesday,rather than wait on friday.Will continue the visualization,but not rely on state

If you do not conquer self, you will be conquered by self.

the self being the EGO.having some extreme bitterness,dark depression,suicidal thoughts,hate,lonliness,bitching,whining,fuck everyone phase.practicing the power of now to get some peace n just enjoy the present.

talked with a guy who read me some of my old emails.not much has changed.one thing that caught my eye was i overcame my fears but it took 3 to 4 years.but i did overcome AA,talking with strangers.but y did it take 4 yrs for my mind to accept it will happen.if it was going to happen,it should have happened right away.
If not now, when?cant fight with the mind or it will strengthen. just have to let it be n show it without getting negative.Accept - then act. Whatever the present moment contains, accept it as if you had chosen it. Always work with it, not against it. This, too, will pass.

finally hanging out with this 50 y.o natural who has slept with 1000 girls...thats what he says??

so this is guy is italian israeli mix. i heard about him sleeping with more than 1000 girls through a friend. he doesnt sleep with them that night but gets them on a date and sleeps with him on day 2.he told me he has 60 girls that he can fuck anytime. so we go out. buy him 6 pack, get some weed. we go out n he socializing with everybody. this guy is 5'6,with ponytail,hawain shirt,sneakers,n cargo shorts.he is talking with everybody...reminds me of lefty from donnie brasco.i havent had sex in a long long time, so i want to see him talk to girls. from 2p-9pm. he doesnt approach one girl.i had to force him to talk to a girl and he got blown out in one sec. whole night, only 2 girls.he shows me pix of girls on his phone, hb10 hot..turns out he use to run a prostitute ring. this guy is 6 beer bottles down, and runs away with the weed lol. we went to west indian parade, italian festival, walked around, but not one girl did he approach. he kept on telling me that enjoy life n girls will come along. i was like, get me some pussy bitch. turns out his relatives had a nasty look whenever he showed up. so he calls this black 22 year old girl up. im already done...we pick her up. he tells me i can sleep with her but will have to pay for the room. this girl has hair on her armpits. looks like she is on crack. i tell him hell no. now he wants me to buy her crack or something, cause she wants some. i was like im broke. dropped him off and got the fuck out.

heard about this ENTJ(myers briggs personality) guy. this one is a master of mistery methood lol. he is 56 also and looks 30. he would tell me what im doing wrong, but would never approach. guys in jersey said he was real good. after 6 double vodkas straight up, he cant open. i ask him to show me, n he says he doesnt have to prove to me. wtf?? lmao. when i open girls, he cockblocks me. i ask him y would he do that. he says so i can get better? i was like wtf? i got other guys cockblocking me, i dont need one more. he tells me he knows more than mysstery and is older than all the great pua, so he knows more. knows more my ass. we go to a strip club, since he has stripper game. yeah he has stripper game, after showering them with a $1000.  he tells me u have to pay the stripper otherwise they dont talk to u. i opened strippers without the singles n told them im a stripper n they have to pay me. he starts judging what i should have done, and what im doing wrong. i guess what im doing wrong is not paying them $1000 showers. not one lap dance, nothing, we go home.

point being....some guys believe they r good n that is there reality. no matter what happens, they r delusional to this belief. but this is just fucking crazy lol. atleast i approach n get blownout, but i approach. anyway, power of now time n read some beliefs.

l8r

This, too, will pass.

My mind is suicidal. the past is dark,depressing,lonely. the future is hopeless,depressing,alone.all i have is the NOW.

Knowing yourself deeply has nothing to do with whatever ideas are floating around in your mind.  The mind puts me down, wants an answer which i cant give. Only answer is being present,which the mind doesnt understand.The mind seeks the answer outside by rebelling, pumping up the music, lashing out at everyone to make sense and understand y. It goes through the history chapters,looking for a cure,some hope.When it cant find an answer, it dies...bringing u depression.If you open the back door,the depression will jump on u as a symbiote.....

.....if you give in....u get extremely depressed.The mind couldnt find an answer and has given up.Given up on you.The mind will taunt you,when you dont take action.When its time to step up,the mind runs around in loops looking for an answer.But in reality,your actions were in the NOW.Mind goes nuts....and gets exhausted.The key to transformation is to make friends with this moment. What form it takes doesn't matter.Say yes to it. Allow it.Be with it. This, too, will pass.                                                                   

BLACK NIMBUS

Got back from the shore. Noticed how everytime a goddess walked by, the guys would just freeze. Cant blame them, as i was a deluded wallflower myself for alil bit.No liquor is easy but takes alil push. All of sudden i felt this rush, in which my mind was completely off. I got few glances of the NIMBUS. i got blown out by girls i approached. This time, rather than fighting with my mind and resisting....i said YES to the moment and surrendered. The beast is coming out....just have to give it alil push.....

                                                                                  

No more reaction time.

"Sometimes letting things go is an act of far greater power than defending or hanging on.

Give up defining yourself - to yourself or to others. You won't die. You will come to life. And don't be concerned with how others define you.

Whenever you interact with people, don't be there primarily as a function or a role, but as the field of conscious Presence. "

--Eckhart Tolle

......WAKE UP!

 The past has no power over the present moment.

Some changes look negative on the surface but you will soon realize that space is being created in your life for something new to emerge.

The primary cause of unhappiness is never the situation but your thoughts about it.

Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness. How do you know this is the experience you need? Because this is the experience you are having at the moment.

Sometimes letting things go is an act of far greater power than defending or hanging on.

Give up defining yourself - to yourself or to others. You won't die. You will come to life. And don't be concerned with how others define you.

Whenever you interact with people, don't be there primarily as a function or a role, but as the field of conscious Presence.

You can only lose something that you have, but you cannot lose something that you are

Life isn't as serious as the mind makes it out to be

You find peace not by rearranging the circumstances of your life, but by realizing who you are at the deepest level.

Whatever the present moment contains, accept it as if you had chosen it.

Whatever you fight, you strengthen, and what you resist, persists.

You find peace not by rearranging the circumstances of your life, but by realizing who you are at the deepest level.

This, too, will pass.

Death is a stripping away of all that is not you. The secret of life is to "die before you die" --- and find that there is no death.

The primary cause of unhappiness is never the situation but thought about it. Be aware of the thoughts you are thinking.

Accept - then act. Whatever the present moment contains, accept it as if you had chosen it. Always work with it, not against it.

Time isn’t precious at all, because it is an illusion.

You do not become good by trying to be good, but by finding the goodness that is already within you, and allowing that goodness to emerge

Is there a difference between happiness and inner peace? Yes. Happiness depends on conditions being perceived as positive; inner peace does not

Being must be felt. It can't be thought.

Don't let a mad world tell you that success is anything other than a successful present moment

Always say “yes” to the present moment. What could be more futile, more insane, than to create inner resistance to what already is? what could be more insane than to oppose life itself, which is now and always now? Surrender to what is. Say “yes” to life — and see how life suddenly starts working for you rather than against you

If not now, when?

The greater part of human pain is unnecessary. It is self-created as long as the unobserved mind runs your life.

...the past gives you an identity and the future holds the promise of salvation, of fulfillment in whaterver form. Both are illusions.

Don't Seek Happiness. If you seek it, you won't find it, because seeking is the antithesis of happiness

To offer no resistance to life is to be in a state of grace, ease, and lightness. This state is then no longer dependent upon things being in a certain way, good or bad.

Knowing yourself is to be rooted in Being, instead of lost in your mind.

Become conscious of being conscious

Listen to the silence underneath the sounds

All problems are illusions of the mind.

You are not your mind.

The mind cannot forgive, only You can.

The moment you truly forgive, you have reclaimed your power from the mind

Forgiveness is to offer no resistance to life--to allow life to live through you.

Attention is the key to transformation--and full attention also implies acceptance.

No matter what happens on the outside, nothing can shake you anymore.

Be aware of the thoughts you are thinking.Separate them from the situation, which is always neutral, which always is as it is.

Knowing yourself deeply has nothing to do with whatever ideas are floating around in your mind.

Accept the present moment and find the perfection that is deeper than any form and untouched by time.

Rather than being your thoughts and emotions, be the awareness behind them.

The ultimate truth of who you are is not I am this or I am that, but I Am.

It may look as if the situation is creating the suffering, but ultimately this is not so--your resistance is.

When you accept what is, every moment is the best moment. That is enlightenment.

When you are present,when your attention is fully & intensely in the Now,Being can be felt,but it can never be understood mentally.

Be aware of your breathing.Notice how this takes attention away from your thinking and creates space.

All you really need to do is accept this moment fully. You are then at ease in the here and now and at ease with yourself.

It is not so much that you use your mind wrongly, you usually don't use it at all. It uses you

If you can neither enjoy or bring acceptance to what you do--stop

The ego doesn't know that the source of all energy is within you, so it seeks it outside.

Whatever you accept completely will take you to peace, including the acceptance that you cannot accept, that you are in resistance.

Knowing yourself as the awareness behind the voice is freedom

The truth is: you don't HAVE a life, you ARE life.

Your unhappiness ultimately arises not from the circumstances of your life but from the conditioning of your mind.

Feel the energy of your inner body. Immediately mental noise slows down or ceases.

Leave Life alone. Let it be.

Nonresistance is the key to the greatest power in the universe.

Ultimately, there is only one problem: the time-bound mind itself.

The mind cannot forgive. Only YOU can.

You find God the moment you realize that you don't need to seek God.

The light is too painful for someone who wants to remain in darkness.

Feel your whole body from within, as a single field of energy...Let this be your practice in the days and weeks to come.

You can't think about presence, and the mind can't understand it. Understanding presence is BEING present.

To listen to silence, wherever you are, is an easy and direct way of becoming present.

Is your doing surrendered or nonsurrendered? This is what determines your success in life, not how much effort you make.

Whatever your life situation is, how would you feel if you completely accepted it as it is--right Now?

Be still. Look. Listen. Be present.

Feel the aliveness within your body. That anchors you in the Now.

The key to transformation is to make friends with this moment. What form it takes doesn't matter.Say yes to it. Allow it.Be with it

True happiness is found in simple, seemingly unremarkable things.

Whenever you are conscious of the breath, you are absolutely present...Conscious breathing stops your mind.

Whereas mind-energy is hard and rigid, Being-energy is soft and yielding and yet infinitely more powerful than mind.

Once you realize and accept that all structures(forms)are unstable, even the seemingly solid material ones, PEACE arises within you

Here is a new spiritual practice for you: don't take your thoughts too seriously.

Forgiveness is to offer no resistance to LIFE--to allow LIFE to live through you.

A great silent space holds all of nature in its embrace. It also holds YOU.

It's up to YOU to open a portal in your life that gives you conscious access to the Unmanifested.

Nonresistance, nonjudgment, and nonattachment are the three aspects of true freedom and enlightened living.



                                                                              

TAKE IT....ITS URS

i see a clear picture...i can taste it...its right infront of me....i know how it feels to have it...the isness of that moment...the wild...getting lost.....its right there.....I AM

                                                                          
Tell your mind to go fuck itself and walk straight into HORRIBLE situations.                          

                                                                                                    

you are not ur mind

using my mind when chasing girls does not work.as soon as i get into the beast mode, not give a fuck, blown out or not the few girls show interest. training urself to be in beast mode and not using ur mind does take alil effort. using ur mind for the past 31 years and now u realize u r not ur mind. mood swing r getting more dangerous. mentally and sexually frustrated with depression always entering through the back door.

Chode Nite.......

havent been out in 2 weeks. quit drinking so didnt think it will effect me but it did. ended up like a wallflower. got alot of looks from girls. weird when im drinking i dont see any girls checking me out. i was doing fine at home not thinking. at the bar my mind wouldnt shut the fuck up. waiting for the perfect moment. should have gotten blown out of every set. going for blowout after blowout to start the night and get out of his head after not approaching for two weeks and going on one hour of sleep.  Will pull at girls as they were walking by who weren't having it because he was so in his head and he pressed forward with every interaction until it was awkward and embarassing, which as he explained before each approach was his goal.  Each one, however, was less bad than the last one, until after 7 or 8 stale sets and blowouts he ended up in set for long periods of time with the hottest girls in the bar who were loving him.....is my goal.

Anything goes.....

Im having a lil trouble with my drinking.Its like either all or nothing. Approaches could have been way better but being wasted is not helping.Clawing/Grabbing girls i assumed would get me in some trouble with nightclubs/bars but something diff happened last nite.I got banned from a place i barely approached girls.I didnt even walk in yet and the bouncer pulled me aside, when the owner gave me a dirty look.Supposedly i got banned from a sports bar for not buying drinks and the owner of shannon rose stopped by to talk with the owner of big shots to ban me from this (big shots) also.WTF? doesnt make any sense. bouncer tells me that a girl came to big shots from shannon rose and said i was mean to her at shannon rose.Wtf, does that have to do with big shots, which is a diff location/diff spot. I barely opened any girls at shannon rose anyway. NJ is weird.Its discrimination, thats what it is.

Getting into issues with my gang of friends on the way i approach girls.They dont like the don juan/fronsac approach.They dont get it, cause girls pick them up.They have blonder hair,blue eyes,good looking so girls want that.Especially if u have a social circle of friends, u are already pre approved by the circle....that way girls will go out with u easily v/s going out with a random stranger who cold approached them.One thing I've learned that in the face of true love/cold approaching.... you don't just give up even if the object of your affection is begging you to

no retreat. no surrender BABY

ended up at hoboken. black girls were open to my approach, but white girls....they ran the other way. havent given up on them. im just gonna have to claw them in now. played with a hessian girls boobies...and they were meant to be played with. so went out with no earrings. dressed up not my usual thing. its all about inner game.

the RAKE=the wild man

The Rake is an extreme personality. Impudent, sarcastic, and bitingly witty, he cares nothing for what anyone thinks.Never worry about going too far: the Rake's essence is that he goes further than anyone else.Be the wild........let yourself go, to draw a woman into the kind of purely sensual moment in which past and future lose meaning. You must be able to abandon yourself to the moment........

                                    
He was impudent and witty. The ladies would play with him like a toy, but he would kiss them on the lips in return, his hands wandering far for an inexperienced boy. When those hands strayed up the skirts of a
duchess who was not so indulgent, the king was furious, and sent the youth to the Bastille to teach him a lesson. But the ladies who had found him so amusing could not endure his absence. Compared to the stiffs in court, here was someone incredibly bold, his eyes boring into you, his hands quicker than was safe. Nothing could stop him, his novelty was irresistible.

In the middle between the tamed and the savage we have the wild man. Be the wild man. The man that is not afraid to assert himself and his desires. He is not perfect. He is like a ball of hairy stuff that instead of trying he does. He goes after his genuine desires. He doesn’t kill, murder or rape but it is not afraid to go after the girl he wants or anything he wants for that matter. he likes to play, he likes to be a kid, he is selfish at times, he is sloppy, he fucks up and gets down and dirty, he is accepting of all he is.

The CLAW meets appetite for destruction

Today i felt like the ending of a film called Black Swan. I feel the feathers are coming out. I am scared but i now see what i have to become to get what i want. it started with a trip to hoboken......

............the vodka didnt work. half a bottle and im sober like i just hard a mixed flavored drink. talked with girls here and there. But then, wait for it......i entered chandelier room in the W hotel. two girls i opened got me in. its like they were open but lost interest in who i was....the beginning of what im afraid of.tried to speak with a couple of girls but nothing. out of no where, i grabbed to white girls with my CLAW and they loved it.it lasted for a couple of minutes but thats it. this is not who i am, but who i am is not working. after that i locked up completely. self sabotage u may call it. i see a vision if u may, a clear picture of who im becoming, but this path is very destructive mentally and physically. after reading a couple of thread of different users, im beginning to see the end of my innocence. hell hath no fury like a man scorned................

MR. GOTHIC

So i ended up going to empire roof top tonite. Vodka didnt kick in and i felt paralyzed. spoke with 2,3 girls but nothing. had to buy 3 beers before trouble kicked in. Welcome MR. HYDE. Did my stuff but she walked away. got personal cause she was asking. never get personal. when will i learn approached other girls but nothing. end up talking to this beauty black/white/italian mix. gorgeous. got personal with her and she said i can leave. gave her a quick peck and moved. she just stole my nite. i should kept on doing rather than getting personnel with her. all she said is what u want to do to me...me being romantic fucked it up. when will i learn again???? two cute indian girls were into me....but u know im done with numbers. just looking to hit and quit it. after that i was beyond exhausted. nothing hooked. where do we go from here.....hoboken i guess ;)

the LIZARD KING

Jim Morrison stands heads and shoulders above the rest.. The man oozes sexiness..... moving slowly purposefully to poeticize his presence.  The iconic rock'n'roll frontman of The Doors is the sex symbol of the dark side of life

a night at hoboken

so i had alil bit too much vodka. i cut back, but on an empty stomach smirnoff hit hard. approached a couple of sets do come back home with me. it didnt work. did shock and awe on 2 sets but it didnt work. i had too much vodka to go back and continue. met a russian barsmaid going back home. did the same line i did on other girls and she was receptive to everything. i didnt ask her to comeback home but she was interested in meeting again. we parted ways on the train station. inside its not me she is attracted to. alot of indian guys have been to russia and russian women love brown skin men. it doesnt matter what they say. call it self-sabotage of my part,but i dont think i did anything to get her attn. maybe she was looking for an indian guy to begin with. will i reply back? NO. i failed today by drinking too much vodka. white,black,spanish girls shut me down as always. if it wasnt for power of now, i would have a bullet in my head. a human can only take so much. oh well.....makes u question the supreme power. y would it let its good human beings suffer so much pain. we havent done anything wrong. we just want to be accepted and loved. u realize that GOD has left this place a long long time ago. so only thing u can do is be merciless with ur ego at the age of 31, and keep on fighting. life is like a car of racetrack. once in a while ur car might get in a spin. its ur job to put it on track. i dont know how long i can do this, but i have nothing else going on for me. at the end, as my friend immoretull said, "Nobody cares if u live or die". i was a believer in LIVE n LET LIVE. on this road cold life, with so much hate, i say LIVE AND LET DIE.............

american women

they are just not into brown skin guys unless ur hispanic.black guys get white girls without doing any work. when a girl is interested in a guy, the guy can make all the mistakes but she still will go out with him.white guys get any nationality. austrailian,european women come to america to sleep with black men. over 6000 approaches but nothing. looks dont matter.online dating, brown guys have no chance unless they are accepted by society. just tired...keep on punching

NOW

• Dont give 100% to the external world. Keep some within.
• When you listen to the voice, listen to it impartially.
• Die to the past every moment, You dont need it.
• Remove time=Mind will not survive.
• Let things go through you like your invisible.
• Whats going on inside me at this moment. Just watch.
• ACCEPT than ACT. Whatever the present moment contains, accept like u chosen it.
• Attention to doing.
• Do not be concerned with the fruit of the action.
• Neither failure nor success can change your being
• Surrender to the moment of pain,anger,hate.
• What if thought?=Projected with mind
• Past bottomless pit=u will make self out of it
• Just watch non-judgementally to dissolve it
• Taking your focus away from thinking into your body
• If your present, you never have to wait for anything
• GIVE UP ON WAITING
• ONLY THE PRESENT WILL SET U FREE!

This is not self-help. This is SELF-DESTRUCTION

Each approach you play TO THE WIRE. You do not do 'trial approaches.' You play that sh*t out until you get blown out.

Be merciless with your ego.

Take the pain.

Take it all.

Don't b*tch, don't whine, don't complain. Be a fu*king man. Take it.

You listen to Tolle relentlessly. Relentlessly.

Whenever you can, you listen to him. You fill your brain with his voice.

You get industrial about this. This is not self-help.

This is self-destruction.

Keep your method SIMPLE and YOURS.

You do not want to be THINKING. Steer clear of 'tactics' based game as you would steer clear of fuc*ing a leper.
 
just fu*king go out and punch through that fu*king wall with your bare fists.

Success is nothing more than pressure over time, so be relentless.

Never accept your excuses.

Push yourself way, WAY beyond your pain threshold.

Be savage with your training, and you will see extreme improvement.