If you do not conquer self, you will be conquered by self.

the self being the EGO.having some extreme bitterness,dark depression,suicidal thoughts,hate,lonliness,bitching,whining,fuck everyone phase.practicing the power of now to get some peace n just enjoy the present.

talked with a guy who read me some of my old emails.not much has changed.one thing that caught my eye was i overcame my fears but it took 3 to 4 years.but i did overcome AA,talking with strangers.but y did it take 4 yrs for my mind to accept it will happen.if it was going to happen,it should have happened right away.
If not now, when?cant fight with the mind or it will strengthen. just have to let it be n show it without getting negative.Accept - then act. Whatever the present moment contains, accept it as if you had chosen it. Always work with it, not against it. This, too, will pass.