Letting go of the ego.......

Had to face some tough rejections today. Two jobs that I needed desperatley to support myself. Even though I went on 2 dates in 2 weeks, that died also. First thing comes to mind is rebelling and looking for someone/image strong enough to deal with it.This just makes the ego stay with the pain, causing the pain to be me.Images, videos, visualizations are alot about the rejection,hate,and suffering.Freeing myself I have to let the pain die and not give it any representation.Otherwise I wont survive. I was going to represent this post with an image,but that contradicts to what I wrote. With my birthday coming up, I have to let go of everything....