VALENTINES DAY MASSACRE OF EM

1.no point in googling for anyone to relate
2.not ur world
3.outkast
4.rules dont apply to u
5.there is no right or wrong
6.extroverted thinking instead of introverted feeling
7.daydreaming is for pussies
8.make a bigger mess
9.let the weakness die
10.daydreaming carries the weakness, let the world kill u
11........

extreme depression

i just dont see a point of waking up. i tried an failed every single time.my mind just cant stfu.no human being can endure this pain.only reason im not dead is because no one gives a fuck.

I'm gonna fight 'em off
A seven nation army couldn't hold me back
They're gonna rip it off
Taking their time right behind my back

And I'm talking to myself at night
Because I can't forget
Back and forth through my mind
Behind a cigarette

And the message coming from my eyes
Says leave it alone

“Sometimes letting things go is an act of far greater power than defending or hanging on.”
― Eckhart Tolle, A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life's Purpose

“Give up defining yourself - to yourself or to others. You won't die. You will come to life. And don't be concerned with how others define you. When they define you, they are limiting themselves, so it's their problem. Whenever you interact with people, don't be there primarily as a function or a role, but as the field of conscious Presence. You can only lose something that you have, but you cannot lose something that you are.”
― Eckhart Tolle, A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life's Purpose

“Death is a stripping away of all that is not you. The secret of life is to "die before you die" --- and find that there is no death.”
― Eckhart Tolle



Fuck it. The world is about to end by this year and Im still here.Why cant u just kill me since you wont give me friends,girlfriend,love.Wtf are you waiting for? Time to practice the power of now to deal with this mind made ego



Don't want to hear about it

Every single one's got a story to tell

Everyone knows about it

From the Queen of England to the hounds of hell 

 

 

kingjadine died

She was a junior in highschool.On her twitter account she tweeted about her suicidal thoughts,to purchasing a gun,but not one of her 2000 followers tried to stop her.She was popular in sports to having tons of friends.What does that say about the rest of us who are outkast nor accepted by society?

Where do we go
Where do we go now
Where do we go

just not happy

i actually dont like going out to clubs/bars, tired of talking to girls. forcing myself to talk with them because i got nothing going on. the rejection has really destroyed my ego. my ego cant even stand up anymore. its shattered but wont die. in order for me to breath n survive, this ego must die.

drinking liquor doesnt do shit for me, cause i blackout.just dont know what to do. i want to get out of this hole,world.

ego took over

went out sober after a while and it was a disaster. outcome dependent, worrying how to approach and what other people might think. i dont get it. i really dont have anyone at 32, still a virgin, face constant rejection but my ego doesnt want to die.in order for me to survive i have to let this ego die, once n for all. just cant breathe anymore

BLUR

From people to girls to locations, everything is a blur. Blur in the sense they dont matter, they dont exist in my world anymore. It doesnt matter who, where, or what they represent they just dont matter. Testing this theory to see what happens. Keep yall posted...pinky swear &

FREE

Im becoming more comfortable with the idea of being alone. Ive went on a second date with this girl from afroromance.com. I have no idea what she sees in me hahaha but i can b myself around her. I havent jerk off in a week, sex is not even on my mind. I feel free but it feels kind of weird about not worrying about anything or being negative. Staying off the Pua boards for now. Goal is to stop drinking and stop smoking. Getting too wasted is messing me up